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Lost at heart

Those who wander are not necessarily lost   – Joseph Stein 

I envy the ones that know where they want to go in life; the ones that have a clear idea of which direction they are heading as they cruise down the highway into the future.

Take for example the executive member of my student mentor team, whom I ran into the other day. She’s a great girl: very positive, always enthusiastic, kind to everyone. This summer she is writing the OAT, a test required for admission into optometry programs in Canada and USA. She plans on applying to schools in the United States and she has her heart on becoming an optometrist.

I look up to her as a senior partly because of her clear path in life. Many students start out with a vague idea of what interests them and then find a career goal as they enter their upper years of school. For me, the experience was the exact opposite. When I applied for the life sciences program at my university, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. Or so I thought. I had my heart set on going into pharmacy when I was in first year… but then the reality of how difficult that would be set in. University chemistry was not my forte (I prefer biology courses). I even came to dread chemistry during my second year. How can a pharmacist expect to succeed if he/she does not even like chemistry?

So now, I am lost. I don’t know where I’m going with my life. People keep telling me “it’s okay,” but I really don’t feel that way. I wanted to have a clearer direction, so I went to talk to a career counselor. She basically told me I need to 1) assess my values and  what gives me satisfaction in life 2) research based on everything in 1). Continue reading

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I’m still alive!

Does anyone still read this thing? I’m not really sure there are people reading this but…. Oh wait I can check my blog stats.

Correction, I am now sure there are people reading this blog: approximately 4 a month since the start of 2012, to be exact. Ah, but that’s just the number of visits my blog has received. It would be very optimistic to assume every visitor is actually reading my blog. It is much more likely that in a month an average of four people accidentally slip their finger while hovering over one of the rare links on the web that bring an unfortunate victim to what is my lovely blog.

Wow, there is more self-deprecation in the first hundred words of this post than I’m usually accustomed to writing. But anyways, I’m going to try  my hand at this blogging thing one more time. I feel like the reason I stopped blogging last year was because I felt like I could never come up with a topic interesting enough for anyone to really want to read, e.g. this post. I have now come to terms with the idea that not every post I write needs to be the most interesting or creative thing I can come up with. I will definitely put my all into my posts, but I’m not going to worry about their content as much (for now, at least).

For now, I’m going to make myself write at regular intervals to ensure that I am constantly practicing and building up my blogging skills toolbox. One day, I hope to create an amazing blog that people will truly enjoy reading and I will really enjoy writing for.

Look forward to it!

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Why feel?

What is a “heart?”

Ask a biologist and you will be told it is an organ for circulating blood around an animal’s body to ensure distribution of heat and other essentials such as oxygen and hormones. That definition makes perfect sense to me.

Ask a poet and you might be told it is something with which a human can feel; something that makes you cry in agony at one moment and then rejoice at the smallest achievements in the next. This definition does not make sense to me.

Evolution dictates that adaptable traits are maintained within a population because they provide an advantage over individuals that don’t possess that trait. What advantage could emotions have provided us in the wild?

Perhaps it is the advantage of kinship, of developing a social system within which members of the population can prosper by working together to survive. Continue reading

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Striving for perfection – why bother?

Be it a perfect grade, a perfect soufflé, a perfect score, or a perfect life, every person can relate to the desire to attain ‘perfection.’ For many, the inability to reach this goal causes immense disappointment and feelings of powerlessness, especially when it is the perfection of society that we seek. Why?

What’s so good about being ‘perfect?’ I believe the pursuit of perfection is meaningless; why? Well let me ask you this: what is perfection?

Perfection is worthless. I know that’s a strong statement, but allow me to explain before you judge me. Perfection is too much an opinion to be taken seriously. Don’t make the mistake of thinking I’m talking about ‘perfection’ in terms of standards of quality; I’m talking about perfection in the eyes of others. My mother once told me that the perfect man for me is one who won’t be addicted to gambling, or alcohol, or cigarettes or drugs. He should have a good heart, and most of all he must be handsome. Being my mother, it’s expected she would want good-looking grandchildren, but that really struck a heart-string. I don’t mind if I marry someone good-looking, but I feel that if I fall for someone beautiful who is a consistent thorn in my side or a negative influence on my well-being and mental health, what good would that do any child of mine?

I don’t like the word ‘perfect’ for it does not exist in nature, nor will you find any perfect humans. Only in the most sophisticated research laboratories can the proposed definition of perfect exist, (perfect sphere, perfect conditions, etc.) within error.

So hold your standards high, but by no means be hardheaded. The worst thing a person can try to do is be perfect in the eyes of other people, as it is quite impossible to please everyone. That’s why the people will always dislike the government, no matter who is in charge.

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